I felt like I have taken the wrong flight, landed on a strange country, and now I am safely back.
The feeling to describe the first moment was 'stunned'. Then followed by a kind of whirlwind and you find yourself swirled uncontrollably. No matter how hard you try to stop it, your emotions get pulled in and in just that split moment, you were no longer just sipping a cup of tea and going with the flow.
I was prematurely put in a situation that spoiled my grand entrance.
Then it was just assessing how big the situation is. Happy thoughts, happy thoughts!
When I was getting over being 'stunned', it was down facing what is real. I have to say that I controlled my anxious thoughts fairly well.
I had an encounter with an angel. I see him at some occasions for the last 10 years, but never really said much. Turns out that he was an angel sent by God after I prayed so hard and declared His goodness. Frankly that was the last I would have expected. I was still amazed at what an iphone can do these days. In what was supposed to be an protracted anxious wait, it was over in a few hours.
The angel called and I broke into a smile. It is a crazy moment where I can clearly link this ending with the orchestration of God. It was a miracle! I know if I told the story, not many will believe, preferring to state other coincidences or reasons, but I truly believe that God's hand was in this. He not only set the outcome, He fixed the delivery in such a way that things went on so smoothly on what was supposed to be a stressed moment.
Why does he have to do that? Why did I do right to deserve this sort of out-of-the-way treatment? I feel very small, yet very loved. I saw the love of God through my angel.
Thanks also for arranging my dear friend as a middleman, and for believing with me. I slept like a baby last night, and I am quite happy that I passed this test with flying colours. I chose to believe!
Thanks Angel. You reminded me of what Jesus did when He was in this world - helping others, displaying such humility, doing big things for small people, and showing such earnestness.
Thank you God for this. Although I was so fearful at times, I seen so much of your goodness out of it.
